I think of my wife's smile, this stupid dog in my lap right now, my grandson telling me his secret (yelling fart), gun range trip, & listening to gospel music, thinking about how much Jesus loves me, enough he took my stripes & died for my salvation.
I just refuse to let something bad consume my life. I've had lot's of ups and downs. I dwell on the ups and just deal with the downs as they come along.
I find that when I'm looking forward to something good, I'm in a better mood. For example, I ordered a new gun from Palmetto last week. I've been looking forward to picking it up from the pawn shop around the corner. I'll then be looking forward to showing my new Christmas present to everyone I visit during the holidays. Then there's the anticipation of putting a couple hundred round through it. Sometimes it can be the promised naked time with the wife, or delicious meal she is going to cook. It can be mundane or fantastic. Just keep thinking about the good things that are coming up in the near future.
I've been logging off, and spending more time with my family. Getting more exercise outdoors (chopping wood, lately). Work on little projects that I enjoy, and need done anyway. Disconnect from all the negativity that is out there. It'll still be waiting on me when I dive back in.
In the last 6-9 months or so I have been struggling some. I was focusing too much on what I should have done instead of on doing what I needed to do now. I found my train of thought going down the road of "if only I could go back in time a few months ago and do _______ differently ".
I finally realized that in six months , today is the day I would want to go back to. That idea has really helped me stay focused and motivated .
It's hard to stay positive. Last few years have been hard on my wife and I. Trying to have a baby, no success. And seeing family and friends all around us that are able to have more babies with no problem whatsoever.
Trust me, it's an even worse feeling when you keep thinking, "why them and not me"? "Why do they get all the luck?"
I look at all the good things that I have in my life. And even though I have been thru some hard times recently, it's made me realize how lucky I am. Things will always get better.
Plus, getting on one of my bicycles and just tearing it up helps release a lot of stress . Pavement, dirt, doesn't matter.
Hills and Valleys... Life is Hills and Valleys.. Somedays a 1.59¢ Root Beer or a Good Bourbon on the front porch could be the Hill of the day.
Other days it could easily be the Valley.