Lost Californian
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I am still not used to this new life. My head does things without telling me. My heart does it thing. Sometimes the two actually get it together and nice things happen.
Today was odd/different for me. The growing forehead and thinning top got me to just do a buzz cut many years ago. Put the 1/4" guard on the trimmers, and hack it all off. Did that Friday. This morning, I actually shaved. I rarely shave. I do not "grow a beard", I just don't shave. Usually I just use the small hair trimmers to get rid of the face fuzz, but I actually used a razor this morning. Then I got out a nice button up shirt, instead of the usual Duluth long tail tshirt I always wear. Then I found a pair of dress shoes in the closet that were bought for a special occasion that didn't happen, and I wore them for the first time today. As I was getting dressed, I slid the holster on the belt, and before I went to church, I even put the pistol in the holster.
I can't explain any of this. Dress up is not something I have ever been concerned over, neat personal grooming was reserved for special occasions. And wow, I carried my gun today. So it was just to church service and back, but still. Beyond my ability to fathom and comprehend. Only thing I know, today is 30 days since Sweetie died. Bittersweet day, overall. I thank God He still loves me, cares and provides all the things I need, even if I do not know what I need.
Thanks for your time.
Today was odd/different for me. The growing forehead and thinning top got me to just do a buzz cut many years ago. Put the 1/4" guard on the trimmers, and hack it all off. Did that Friday. This morning, I actually shaved. I rarely shave. I do not "grow a beard", I just don't shave. Usually I just use the small hair trimmers to get rid of the face fuzz, but I actually used a razor this morning. Then I got out a nice button up shirt, instead of the usual Duluth long tail tshirt I always wear. Then I found a pair of dress shoes in the closet that were bought for a special occasion that didn't happen, and I wore them for the first time today. As I was getting dressed, I slid the holster on the belt, and before I went to church, I even put the pistol in the holster.
I can't explain any of this. Dress up is not something I have ever been concerned over, neat personal grooming was reserved for special occasions. And wow, I carried my gun today. So it was just to church service and back, but still. Beyond my ability to fathom and comprehend. Only thing I know, today is 30 days since Sweetie died. Bittersweet day, overall. I thank God He still loves me, cares and provides all the things I need, even if I do not know what I need.
Thanks for your time.